Its been awhile

Its times in life that you can sit here try to do the right things, struggle through the wrong things but always seem to get know where in life. Things come at you faster then you can handle, the directions of life start changing faster then the seconds on a clock. Which way is up? Which way is down? What is the right way? Through all of our lives we seek God when things turn bad, when times are tough. We feel closer to Him when we hurt, is it the grace He shows us when no one else can? Is it the forgiveness He gave us through His son? All the above and then some. All I know is we need Him then, now, everyday we have a breath in our body, through the tough times and the happiest times, we need Him.

I haven’t written in awhile and through the absence of written I see that I really have missed it. Its amazing to see good or bad how comforting the words that God places on my heart. I’m a huge music fan and as I study and write at times I listen to music. Some lyrics are funny, some motivating, and a lot are heart moving. I have taken some lyrics and mixed them with my thoughts to something I’ve titled: My life. I hope to continue writing on here and let it not be another year until I write something.


My Life

I've been there a thousand times, I've felt the rain hitting my face like a thousand knives.
It hurts and it's hard, I don’t want to leave it, bury it and forget. I’ve already wasted so much time, can’t wait another moment, am I all out of chances for you to believe it’s on my mind, I’ve gotta let go of my pride and apologize, Lord its my cry to you.

I hear: Don't be afraid, You'll make it through, Just call out to me and I'll come running to you!

I beg to you Lord! I thought it would never let go, never thought I could know what it’s like to wake up, holding what I gave up. After all this time still trying to find what it is to forgive even when it isn’t that easy so please believe me. Lord if I caused you pain, I will take the blame, you can put it on me if I broke your heart, if I left a scar let me say I’m sorry, please forgive me.

Gods answer: I'll give you hope, I'll give you faith! If it's dark, I'll light the way for you, I’ll be by your side, until the very end. Until that day you stand tall next to my side, I’m here and always have been. If the tide, sweeps you out to sea, when your strength is gone, and it's hard to believe! You have to hold on, to what gets you through when the current pulls you under, and your heart is racing. Until the storm is over, I’ll be fighting with you, for you, just give me hand. Reach up, give me your hands and see the light. Do you hear that still, small voice saying, it’s okay you’re not alone. You may be scared to death but I won’t let you go. You may think the sky above is falling, but can you hear me calling because the darker the night, the brighter I will shine.

God thank you for the light you have shown me, the darkness you have helped me get through. The mountains you have helped me climb and the sun rises you have shown me. God thank you for providing me the people, the family I need to make it through life. God thank you for My Life.